With God All Things Are Possible, Jennifer Lee

For the majority of my high school and college years, I lived apart from the Lord. By this I mean that I did not pray much, if at all, during this time and that I lived doing what I wanted to do without considering Him at all. But by the mercy of the Lord, He softened my heart to Him and made me feel that I neither wanted to, nor could go on living apart from Him. Through my contact with other seeking Christians, I saw that I needed to live by Christ and for Christ, even moment by moment. Coming to this realization gave meaning to my life.

Yet after this, I felt that I was so incapable of pleasing God or even caring about God and His interests. Mark 12:30 charges us to “love the Lord your God from your whole heart and from your whole soul and from your whole mind and from your whole strength.” But I realized that in my experience, I loved the Lord very little. I loved many other things instead of the Lord. I started to feel that my desire to do something or be someone for the Lord was in vain because my heart was so occupied with other matters and persons. What could I do?

A great release from this burden came in reading The Pure In Heart by Witness Lee. The chapter entitled, “With God All Things Are Possible,” showed me that we are no longer under the dispensation of law. The dispensation of law in the Old Testament required us to labor and have good behavior before God. This law was put in place to show man how impotent and unable man is to meet God's demand (Romans 7). Today we are not under the dispensation of law, but of grace (Romans 8:1-4). Jesus Christ fulfilled every requirement of the law (Matthew 5:17). When I believed into this Person, I believed into the fulfillment of every requirement. Now I have been called to enjoy what's been done. Whenever I realize how short I am of meeting the standard, I must turn and tell the Lord, “I can't do it.” This is actually what the Lord is after. My inability opens the door for God, as the great “I Am,” to flood me with the supply I need. Instead of focusing on what I'm not, I focus on what He is. I commit myself and my condition to Him and this brings me into a wonderful release and enjoyment. I experience God as my river of grace, which is able to meet any demand. “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible” (Matthew 19:26). This is actually the reality of grace, enjoying God who does and is everything that I could never do and never be. Praise the Lord for God as grace!